Oh Gosh

July 29, 2010

I didn’t think we could beat last year’s Burning, but I think we did. This year I felt totally comfortable with everyone there. Even Lewis, who, for some reason, we invited. Ok, so the fire didn’t last as long and we did play the ‘I never’ game-with no alcoholic beverages to hand (Thank God-we DO NOT NEED ALCOHOL), we used orange juice instead. Admittedly, sleeping on the trampoline still freaks me out a little, but it was better than usual this time round. Even this morning I still felt social, which hardly ever happens. Ironically, nobody took any photos to document what was a really brilliant evening. Even Megan said ‘throw more nights like this one’, and that’s a massive compliment coming from the lovely emo who feels ill at social gatherings. So I’m happy everyone (including me) had fun.

And Meg bought me round a guitar to practise on! I’ve learnt a few chords so far, but I’m not so good at remembering not to bash the guitar around!

Song I’m Listening to; ‘The Calculation’ by Regina Spektor. I’ve just found this, and I’m listening to it repeatedly.

My gosh, I want to scrapbook! I haven’t done any for so long, it’s ridiculous. I’ve just been looking at Shimelle Laine’s blog, and I’m really in the scrappy mood.

Happy days : )

Oh-and I got new glasses. I don’t like them.


My thoughts

July 27, 2010

-The pool will not be ready for tomorrow. So when friends arrive for the Burning they’ll find a great big muddy hole with loads of stones in. Disappointing.

-I’m going to read the emails that she [temporarily] ruined my life with. I don’t know if these will make me feel better or not.

-I’m doing the Unravelling course!

-I’m doing Susannah Conway’s August Break!

-I went to Bourton-on-the-water today with my nanny, and I dipped my feet in freezing cold water.

-I spent two pounds forty five on a bottle of orange and jasmine juice just so I could fill the empty bottle with flowers.

-I bought 200g of mustard yellow and purple wool…to make necklaces out of.

-I’m going to Monkey World next week!

-It’s really dark outside and I can’t hear any thing from my sister, brother and her friend.

-Almost everybody in the village knows me as ‘Melony’s daughter’, which I like.

-Rowanna’s hamster Sammy is dying, a week today that Jynx died.

-Tomorrow I am getting new glasses. I’ll put up photos of the difference in the glasses tomorrow.


July 25, 2010

Since it was an impromptu and utterly spontaneous trip to London, I was armed only with my crappy phone camera. These are like, the only three pictures that came out vaguely discernible. And the crocodile handbag just made me sad : (

Summer Be Here

July 23, 2010

Eep! How excited am I? Today Sarah and I went to London and I dragged her to the Natural History Museum and spouted lots of ‘interesting’ facts that she was so thrilled to hear about. Photos possibly tomorrow?

We’re also building a pool : )

The Future

July 13, 2010

I was always convinced, partly due to my love of art and my dad, that I would go art university and come away with an art degree, then I would be a professional artist.

Now, I’m going to university in two years to do an English/Lit degree, because I want to be an English lecturer.

But since discovering Natural History illustration (thanks The Behaviour of Moths) I want to go back to my art.

So the University of Sunderland has lots of things going for it; they do a BA hons design degree, including natural history illustration. Unfortunately, I also have to do lots of other stuff that I’m not so interested in, like fashion art.

Extra unfortunately, I can’t do combined art and English degrees.

So now I have the decision; do art or English? That’s even if I get into Sunderland.

But I have four other universities to find, and I’m afraid that those universities will be to do an English degree. I’m worried I’ll regret not doing my art degree if I do English, and vice versa.

And meanwhile I have to excel at college to gain enough UCAS points to even get to do an English degree. I also have to pass my maths GCSE. Which, quite honestly, brings frustrated and angry tears to my eyes everytime I think about it. But then, no GCSE, no uni.

I’ve decided to do Susannah Conway’s Unravelling e-course in September. This also means I have to get a Summer job in order to pay for it. I was just going to wait until her book came out, but I feel like I should do this course now. I need to. And plus, I’m in awe of Susannah Conway. She is like my role model, I admire her so much, and I think she has a beautiful way of writing, photographing and thinking. If I do the course, I get to actually get in contact with her.

Oops, got a bit sidetracked there. Anyway, I’m slowly, slowly, slowly working on a scrapbooking project. I have to take it slowly, since I’m suffering from a very severe scrapbooker’s block. It’s awful. I want to scrapbook, but I find fault with the photo colours and the paper colours, and I have absolutely no idea how to put it all together in a pleasing compostion.

I’ve had a photography project idea, involving a twist on the word sleepwalk, but I still need to persuade Rowanna to be my model. The setting is also quite public, and I’m not sure she’d be happy to go there again after I made her dress up in my green-gold ball dress and walk around the very same mansion house/hotel.

Only have three more days at college, and then it’s the summer holidays! This is extremely exciting, especially to someone like me who is very bored and tired of sitting in the library reading a book that, although very good, seems to never end (The Secret History, Donna Tartt).

So now I need to search for more universities or I’ll never get into one.

: )

The Friday : )

July 9, 2010

Cannot believe I have been blogging here for almost four months. Seems a lot shorter time than that.

Working on a big arty project : )

Drinking Ka Sparkling Pineapple drinks

Just about to go and watch the I.T Crowd

Tomorrow get to paint a mural : )

Chatty post

July 8, 2010

I don’t remember ever telling my little sister to ‘grow up’. She really shouldn’t. Growing Up is such a treacherous and frustrating thing. However, I wouldn’t know, I haven’t done it yet.

Well, I finally have the internet for my laptop (“I have a dongle!”)! I was going to post last night but it was being r…e…a…l…l…y slow, so I gave up.

So…what have I been up to all week? Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday I was not well. Okay, Monday I was ill, and Tuesday and Wednesday I was “ill”, if you get my drift : )

Today I read almost 300 pages of The Secret History, my English lit set text. I had just two lessons and couldn’t go home so I just read. Needless to say, when I got home I was very fidgety and went on the trampoline.

Got some money this week-IOseveral-people lots of money-so I only have a little bit for myself. Yeah, I’ve already spent most of it on scrapbooking stuff from the delightful www.papermaze.co.uk I get all my scrapbooking stuff from there.

Speaking of that gorgeous hobby, I have been scrapbooking-honestly! I’ll do another big arty-shizz post probably tomorrow. I’ve just been feeling very scrapbooky-stunted lately, focusing mainly on my art (thank you art club discount!) and my stitching. I even managed to do a little writing, something I haven’t done in a long time.

And art? I’ve been working BIG. BIG as in A3 BIG. I find it difficult to draw or paint that size, but lately I’ve been poring over my books and have been working on several projects that look better BIG and take longer than three hours.

I’ve bought a beautiful art book, it’s called ‘Natural History Painting with the Eden Project’, and, since my favourite book as a child wasn’t Harry Potter or the other popular books, it was a slightly out of date Natural History guide. I used to spend many car journeys gazing at the butterflies and mushrooms. And now I can put the into good use-incorparating them into my fairy paintings. In the summer I’ll head to London and spend a happy day wandering around in a daze in the Natural History Museum.

So tomorrow I have one lesson and get to come home early and Fridays mean shopping; here I come sketchbooks! I’m also craving a Burger King vanilla milkshake and an oversized chocolate coin from Sweet Central : )


July 6, 2010

the negatives;

  • Lost my mum
  • Cried
  • Missed a vitally important for my future Careers day at college
  • Realised just how unsocial I am

the positives;

  • Found my mum
  • I like being unsocial
  • Watched Charlie Bartlett and got my Robert Downey Jnr fix
  • Did some more stitching
  • Plan to do some scrapbooking
  • Drank some wine

to look forward to;

  • steak, chips, mushrooms, peas and a whole lotta peppercorn sauce for tea 🙂

can’t decide;

  • whether I should bother to go to college tomorrow
  • whether I should tidy my bookcase. Again.
  • whether I should just go have a nap now.


Yippee! Tomorrow is the long-awaited trip to see Sarah. Today is the one-month anniversary since I last saw her, and I can happily announce that on Saturday she is coming back-for good! Me thinks my friends are getting bored of hearing her name, but hey, she’s my best friend.

I’ve been feeling…peculiar lately. I honestly can’t tell the difference between slight depression and total mellowness. Some days I want to stop being the detached self-contained person I am and I want to go out and have fun with friends. But then I have to sit back and stop myself. No. I have to say. No. I picked this. I chose to be this way, it helps me cope and helps me stay in control. If I go out and laugh with friends then I’ll get to that awful part where I think people actually care. And then I’ll be spilling my life’s story and shizz. Thanks alot Kathy for telling me you didn’t care.

I’m not bitter about it, it just shocked me.

So, to combat these feelings of…let’s call it loneliness (Damn I hate that word) I’ve been throwing myself into art and reading. Reading particularly. I got The Spy That Came In From The Cold and The Bell out of the school library, I finished reading The Behaviour of Moths, We Are Made of Glue and The Earth Hums in B Flat last week and this week, and I bought The Secret History, Tess of the D’Urbervilles and Therese Raquin today. Phew. I also have yet to buy and read The Scarlet Letter.

Well, it keeps things off my mind.