April 30, 2010

Am planning to really start blogging here at the w/e, but for now my time (including sleeping time) is taken up trying to finish my art and photography projects which are due in today. Kinda running on low batteries at the moment, I’m literally like a zombie. And you’ll be pleased to know that my cynicalism/depression has given way to still a little bit of cynicalism, but lots of happiness too! All due to friends 🙂

I’m pretty sure I’m going to get C’s in art and photograpy, but hey, no point worrying or regretting that now, from today I don’t have any more than two lessons a day for five weeks! Plus, I only find out what I got in August, so I don’t want the spend the gorgeous weather panicking.

Expect a few memory-philosophical posts the next couple of days, I realised something at like, three a.m a couple of days ago and wanted to blog about it, but since I’d already been up for seven hours doing work, I thought I’d better go to bed at that point xD



April 21, 2010

“How do you pick up the threads of an old life?

How do you go on living?

When, in your heart, you begin to understand,


There is no going back?


There are some things time cannot mend.

Some hurts that go too deep.

That have taken hold.”

The Return of the King, J.R.R Tolkien {from the film}

So Friday is the “big party night”. I’m cynical that having a party in a public park is the best of ideas, but hey, you never know. It could be a success.

And since my recent fall from various friendships has resulted in me feeling extra lonely, extra detached and extra dependent on my iPod, perhaps Friday will bring new beginnings of new friendships for me?

I’ve turned into such a cynic lately. Everytime I write something cynical I have to stop myself and delete it.

The three girls who sit next to me in Maths today (speaking of maths, I failed my exam-another D for the markbook-I’m not optimistic about next year’s timetable) were doing a quiz type thing. They tried it out on me.

This is what I got;


=Sophisticated, detached, imaginative, blank canvas, optimistic


=Fidgety, twitchy, dreamy, independent, easily distracted, colourful, blunt, beautiful, fascinating

The first is your favourite colour and how it makes you feel and this translates as how you would unconsciously describe yourself.

The second is your favourite animal and how you can describe that animal. This translates as what you look for in a partner.

Right, Mr Birdy-Mannerisms Man, come my way, please!

Gone with the wind

April 18, 2010

It’s all gone.

Hello world!

April 17, 2010

I’m going to begin my newest blog off with the title that WordPress provided; ‘Hello World’. At the moment, I’m not feeling very optimistic and I guess I need the boost.

This is a new blog, under a different name (don’t worry, I made it up, I’m not doing fraud or anything) I just don’t want my friends to find me since they’re the reason I’m here now. I know you don’t want to hear about what they did, so I won’t divulge. But I’ll be depressed for quite a while, so don’t be expecting a bundle of witty jokes.

A bit about me;

I’m a storyteller-I write books. None published since I’m only sixteen and still editing. If you’re lucky you might get a few extracts from my current book.

I’m a an artist-I draw stories. Paint doesn’t work for me, neither does colouring pencils. But grey pencils, ink pens and biros are fine. If you’re extra lucky, you might get some scans of my work. Mostly I draw fairies, I’ve been drawing them since I was about six and since at that age I had all Cicely Mary Barker’s Fairy books, I guess I was heavily influenced by them.

I’m a photographer-I create stories and I photograph them. My little sister is my muse, she {un}happily gets dressed up in such things as my ball dress and lets me dash around taking photographs. I might even post some images here.

I’m also a scrapbooker, music listener, homebody, comedian {yes, I know that sounds unbelievable}, walk and nature lover, believer in the impossible {hence the fairies}, total book nerd etc. You hopefully get the picture.

Right Now; I should be doing that ton of art homework.

I live in a little village, not too deeply sunk in the countryside, but there’s enough of it. I used to be very social, and, dare I say it, even popular. But alas, going off to college taught me what real friends are, and now I’m happily settled into a little group of friends. My family are probably the most eccentric family for miles, but being a Cancer star sign, they are the people that get me through the day.

Life is pretty shit sometimes.

I’ll leave you on that “lovely” little note, I really should make a start on that artwork patiently waiting to be done…:/